Never better than today have I realised the meaning of the acronym PIGS- Poor International Graduate Students. The outside temperature is 9 degrees FAHRENHEIT,it's snowing freaking crazy and I have to walk in this snow to the lab to run a PCR!!!!!!!!!

SHUCKS! Really!

Some times I think the biggest toll that life has taken on me is to have silenced me effectively. There used to be a time, when I didn't have to grope for words.I don't know why it happened or when it happened or how it happened.It just did. These days I can hear and see phrases and words.. but as soon as I sit down to write them down.. they leave, and they leave me so utterly empty and in despair. This dumbness is soothing so to think but it's eating into me. What's happening to me?

Just another day.

For a thousand kisses
That runs through the core
I won’t forget reality, now,
Waves wash me away
A favor no less no more;
And I cringe and flutter
No stones left to turn
Oh the love and the pain
And ashes fill the urn.
And the darkness keeps on seeping
And the cold under the door
Creeps up and up the walls,
As lying on the floor
I listen to the phoenix
And the demons in a chorus
Calling me to doom
It fills up my ears
As blankness fills the room…
And no I am not slipping
I am not weeping
It all ends here.